dirty little secret

I have one. A major one.

I read twilight fanfiction.

I know, I know! How embarrassing! Except for Twilight (which I read, I admit. I forced my mother to buy it for me for my thirteenth birthday and I devoured it in a few hours and spent a whole lot of time on this site callled twilightlexicon or something of that sort), I've flipped through the other books in the series and eh, whatever. They didn't really do much for me and I thought the characters were written quite badly.

Which brings me to my main point. I started reading fanfiction simply because the books did nothing for me. I've noticed that there's no way I can read fanfiction of something I hold very close to my heart (case point: Harry Potter) because the characters and the their world mean so much to me. I found the idea of Malfoy and Hermione doing it t to be blasphemous! Harry and Hermione?! Jeez, what's wrong with the people of the world?!

See, that's where fanfiction comes in. It's perfect for stuff you really don't care about. I do agree that most people feel passionate about a certain fandom and that's what drives them to write for it but personally, that's one thing I couldn't do. If I loved something too much, I'd just slave over the original matter again and again  because- to me- that's magical.

So yes, back to twilight fanfiction. Where do I start? Oh yeah, it was back in... 2008, I think. I was fascinated by the idea of Midnight Sun (which is the Edward- male protagonist of Twilight. If you didn't know that, you've been living under a rock) and it frustrated me because I couldn't read it. I found a comment about Midnight Sun- written by somebody who wasn't the author! It was a regular lady! It was called fanfiction! I'd lost my fanfiction virginity to some Harry Potter fic back in the sixth grade but that didn't count. I also read a fair bit of A Great and Terrible Beauty fanfiction sometime between 2007-2008 but it was this silly fandom that really sucked me in.

It's been four years. Four years of school and I'm in college now and I cannot give up fanfiction. Especially Twilight fanfiction. It's escapism at it's best. I've stayed up 'til seven in the morning READING. Yeah, I know! I once bunked school because an author killed off an Edward in a WIP (work in progress, you noobs) and I was depressed.

It's sometimes depressing. I'm a major lurker so I only post comments here and there and I definitely don't actively participate. It's an ugly fandom, let me tell you. Authors pull their fics every other day because of the hate mail they receive and that's partly why I began to back up fanfiction. I downloaded a program and everything for that purpose. And this is the fandom that produced 50 Shades of Grey! Fun fact: I knew about it when it was being published on fanfiction.net. Wow, right? I couldn't read it because it was a 110 chapters and BDSM kind of icked me out back then.

One major thing about fanfiction is that it's turned me into a complete perv. The number of weird fantasies that have been drilled into my head at the young, young age of fourteen is astronomical. And nothing icks me out anymore, really. You want to shove a tree trunk up her ass? Go ahead and do it! You want to make Bella a hu-cow? Yes, please! (There really was a fic like that. Promise)

So yes. That's my fanfiction story. I've drabbled in some other fandoms but it's twilight fanfiction 4eva!