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I feel like I've been in a real rut lately. I haven't been able to bring myself to do anything and that just makes me more apathetic and lazy and upset. I know exactly what I should do but I can't do anything except waste time online and walk from room to room whining. I can't even finish writing or reading a paragraph and it's so frustrating. Also, this is a really bad summer and even though I totally romanticize summers in my head, they kind of suck in reality. Also, I'm on a real negative kick and everything seems useless and pointless and stupid and I want to snap out of it. "The only person holding yourself back is you"- yes, wise words that I should stick up on my wall but I don't have the energy to do that.

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I've been on a real movie watching kick. The best movie I watched in the last one week was probably Dark City, which is this sci-fi movie released in 1998 about a guy who wakes up with no memory of anything. He lives in a city where it's perpetually dark, he might be a serial killer and there are a bunch of creepy ball dudes after him. I really enjoyed this one. It was tense and fast-paced and mind-blowing and every little detail was so well done. The effects do get quite cheesy in the end but the overall effect was great.

I also watched The Place Beyond The Pines, which I thought I would love (Ryan Gosling) but it ended up being quite disappointing. A third of the movie is exactly like Drive, but with bikes and definitely not as good. Drive hits you good and you root really hard for the Driver but this movie just seemed like a poor substitute. There wasn't any flow as the movie slipped from one narrative to the other. The only thing I really really really enjoyed about the movie were the trees. I swear. The pines were beautiful. I would have enjoyed a movie about haunted woods a lot more, I think. (That's my new kick right now: haunted woods and folklore and myths and legends about haunted forests.I have a funky notebook dedicated just for this kind of stuff).

The Fall was another movie I watched and wait, that's the guy from Pushing Daisies?! There were some scenes that I really enjoyed (and cried during) but the overall effect was a little blah-ish. The little girl was really adorable though. I think I ended up watching the entire movie with full attention only because she was so incredibly good.

I remember watching Thelma and Louise a few years ago but I sat through it again. I'm all for movies about girls and generally being a kickass female but this one kind of fell flat. And I also watched Castle in the Sky, which was quite disappointing. I loved Spirited Away and Howl's Moving Castle and Princess Mononoke so I assumed I'd like this one but ugh no that was not the case.
I haven't read a book in a really long time, which is kind of sad. My to-read list on goodreads grows fast but so does my abandoned bookshelf. Need to sit down with one book and read it cover-to-cover.

I'm also bored and lonely because all my friends are in different places. Maybe if I studied, it would take my mind off stupid things but I wish there was a cure for laziness.

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And now, every time I watched Game of Thrones and there's a scene with Theon in it, the only thing that comes to mind is this song:

At least Alfie finally amounted to something in life. And how insane was the last scene in this week's GoT episode?!